To Trust? Trust?

           This term for me is just one of the most rare and confusing life related topics of all. A few years ago I would've took a ride with anyone who said "Hey, I want to do some good so I will take you on my way". Hell, I already did. Gladly I was with two friends and we were all so gullible that when a car stopped and the driver told us to come on in and that they will take us home, we just got in. A few moments later we looked at each other and I said to my friend on my left "Did we just get into a car, just because there was no transportation?" And he said "May god be with us". Thank god that was all that, they actually did just take us home. We got out and all together wondered "We should've offered gas money, right? " and that was the end of that. That was actually during my first year at college. 

          Through college I dealt with people. The good, the bad and the fugly. Fugly, like ugly and fucking in one word. Its nothing to do with looks its got personality smeared all over it. I dealt with the trusting people, the ones that couldn't tell the difference between being a friend to someone and being a reference. Someone to get important information from e.g: reports, assignment ... blah blah blah. I also got to know the afraid type. These actually aren't so bad but they tend to attack you or be over defensive. In any messed up situation this type would just be the one who says "I have nothing to do with it" even if it's not the one to blame and also the first one to say "I will make sure for myself". Its a right for all people to make sure but its terrible to convict others. I was at first 70% gullible and 30% type 2. Through the years I spent at college I got to deal with more people and be 50% gullible and 50% type 2. With time I kept thinking what I am. It kept on changing  ... and finally thought, Hey, type 3! For me I don't believe 90% of what people say and I don't trust people's goals and wants. This has been a big problem for me for like a year now. I don't trust anyone anymore. I talked with people with life experiences and they told me what I needed to hear exactly. "You're 20. You're young. You have all the time ahead. You will, after you see many personalities, know how to trust. You will know how to add the proper ingredients with the appropriate amount. You will know. When you listen to someone, you will be able to decide whether the following is a lie or not. You will figure it out. YOU will figure it out". This, in retrospect, made me feel better,MUCH better. I mean to say, I know I won't be Dr. Xavier but I will learn some textbook actions and hopefully I will learn how to trust and how not to trust. A 5-letter word yet needs a lifetime to learn.